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Who is Sunfyre? September 1, 2003 My name is Jason. I'm 33. I'm married to Kristen and have two children, Jason Andrew and Ainsley Grace. They are twins, 17 months old. I'm in a wheelchair, and have been all my life. I have a disability called Spinal Muscular Atrophy. It's a life-threatening disease, but so is driving your car or crossing a busy street, so I don't get worked up about it often. I'm being more honest. I used to use Sunfyre as my way of rattling away about things I didn't want to own. Thoughts, feelings, and opinions that I'm comfortable sharing with the anonymous public, but not necessarily with my closest friends. Then, gradually my friends began reading this page. I'd let a few read an entry before I published it, and they reacted well. Now about six or seven "real life" friends and family read this. I no longer hide this page from people who love me. After they started reading this, I found myself editing. It was less raw. My writing improved, but my purpose suffered. This was supposed to be my hole in the world into which I'd drop my feelings and gradually cover them with dirt. Sunfyre's readership improved, more and more people were stopping for a daily dose, but I wasn't enjoying it much.
One final disclaimer. Anything written here is likely of little consequence. If things are going incredibly well or absolutely terrible, I'm probably busy with those things, too busy to be writing. Sunfyre is the stuff that happens in between the important stuff.
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Here's me. I love being a father. I like my wife, my best
friend. I'm a sexual being. I enjoy watching sports particularly
auto racing and football. I love watching movies, particularly ones that
make me think. I love Mets baseball, but rarely get to watch. I am
$40,000 in debt and perpetually think I'll be wealthy someday, some day
soon. I'm a liberal Republican. I hate bigotry and racism, and
consider them sinful. I'm spiritual, but not necessarily religious.
I believe the world would be a better place if more people were like Jesus, but
I'm not a very good example. I graduated high school at 16 and college at
20. I love to cook, and hate it when my wife hurries through a recipe and
it doesn't come out as good as it should. I have a dry sense of humor, and
can tell a good joke. I'm not politically correct. I want to be
loved. I enjoy looking at naked women, but wouldn't consider it a career
or even a hobby. I swear too much. I use correct grammar and
punctuation when writing. I believe the Internet is simultaneously the
world's greatest invention and its biggest virtual landfill. I collect
Coca-Cola items, particularly advertising from the World War II era. I
love music of all kinds, as long as its original, lyrical, and performed by
artists with skill. I hate Celine Dion. I read constantly, fact not
fiction. I have an IQ above 165. I write truth for money and lies
for therapy. I'm not pro-choice or anti-abortion, and yes this is
possible. My parents are divorced but my home was never broken. I
have three adopted siblings, I call them sister, sister and brother. I
hate big tobacco. I actually like Donald Trump and Bill Gates, although
the latter frustrates me sometimes. I have been addicted to EverQuest, but
I'm currently in a 12-step program. I believe giving credit where credit
is due. I own an HP, but besides the sticker, it's not even close to the
original computer. I believe in substance and style, in that order.
I donate to charity but could do more. My hobby is making money. I
secretly want both my children to become professional race car drivers, people
think I'm joking when I say that, but I'm not. I never hiccup more than
three times. I've had my sneakers since 1987, no kidding. My
favorite clothing is a tuxedo, I've never had a bad day in a tuxedo. I'd
love to have sex with a college gymnast. I have an office in my
home. I get up every day by 6:30, 7:30 on weekends. I stay up too
late. Sometimes I hate being the smartest person in the room, but I refuse
to play down my intellect. I've never had therapy, answered a
personal ad, or ridden a roller coaster, but I think I probably should have done
all three. I am afraid of death.